Da Road of Life

Okays, in 2 more hours (according to malaysia’s time) I will officially turn 20!! OMG 20!!! no more teenager, in a year time i’ll get my voting right. Happie~

This is what happened on the last day of me being 19 years old.

10-06-2007 (Sunday)

0230 : Roomate came into the room getting ready for bed and woke me up. Asked her

           what was the time now with one eye closed and she told me its was half past 2am.

0245 : Brushed teeth and washed up in 15 minutes and after grabbing a slice of bread I

           positioned myself in my study-nest and tried to get myself into the studying mood.

           (which included checked friendster, friends’ blogs, listenned to loud music)

0330 : Still couldn’t focus, got bored after reading all da blogs, wanted to talk to my other

           housemate but he was so engrossed in doing his own stuff that I didn’t dare to

           kacau. Was trying to read at least one lec but the words were blurry.

0430 : Finished 1 and a half lec notes but found myself not able to remember a thing

           when I tried to recall what I’ve just read.

0445 : Housemate finished his work, said oyasumi and went upstairs to his room. Alone

           now. Continued trying hard to focus on the notes in front of me.

0600 : Finished 3 lecs and tak boleh tahan anymore. Went to Cruncyroll and watched first

           episode of Lovers in

Paris

. Nice.

0745 : Eyes were closing so I went upstairs to get a nap.

0930 : Roomie’s alarm went off. Half-awaken, I think I saw her searching through her

           wardrobe and went downstairs.

1100 : Our friendly neighbours decided to have a morning talk on their balcony and they

           got very excited over their conversation and woke me up. It gave me headache.

1130 : Found myself in front of my laptop. Started knitting while watching HK drama.

1230 : Housemate woke up. I went downstairs to grab my breakfast, 4 pieces of oat

           biscuits. Continued knitting and my drama.

1400 : Roomie came back and asked me to go see furnitures at her friend’s place.

           Get myself changed out of my PJ and off we went. Bought a Ham Cheese

           croissant at a nearby  bakery. It was NICE!!

1430 : Reached friend’s place, wanted to buy her IKEA study table but it was already

           booked. There was nothing that we wanted so we left after saying thank you.

1500 : Roomie and Mega said they wanted go shopping and that I should go home to

           study. Suspected something but didn’t object further and went home alone.

1645 : Had been studying for 1 and a half hour. Housemate cooked very nice pasta for

           both of us. We had two rounds of pasta. Love the meatballs.

1830 : Housemate went off to work and I decided that I was too tired and that I should

           take a nap. Roomie sent me a msg that read “ Yoyo! Adel’s birthday tomorrow,

           wanna share her present? What’s your budget? Plus I am cooking dinner tml

           night!” I laughed and replied “This is so cute, wrong person darl~” Fell asleep.

2000 : friendly neighbours decided to have a night talk on their balcony again (why do

           they always have to talk when I am sleeping) Got up and shut the window and shut

           my eyes for a little longer. After like 5 mins, phone rang, it was roomie asking

           whether there are eggs at home. I gave up and got my ass outta bed.

2015 : Positioned myself back in my nest. Felt fresher and started reading my lec notes.

           10 more lecs to go. Roomie came back and we made fun of the sms she sent me.

           She started baking brownie and banana cheese cake which I requested for my

           birthday. I continued studying while chatting with her. She asked me to pretend

           like I am surprised tomorrow eventhough I knew there was surprise tml.

2115 : Suddenly heard someone struggling to put the key into the keyhole and  roomie

           said it must be Bing, my other housemate, I thought so too.

2116 : Door open. Was about to greet Bing. The first person appeared at door wasn’t

            Bing but Min Hau with his happy face and weird pose. Then followed by the

            Happy Birthday song. I was wrapped in my throw rug, studying accounting

            treatment for Foreign exchange transactions, all SURPRISED. One by one,

            familiar faces came into the house, then I saw a choc cake with a candle on it

            amidst the crowd. Suddenly our small house was filled with all our friends.

            I was touched and speechless. Only managed to keep smiling. The first cake was a

            Small choc cake, immediately I knew they gonna smash my face into it. After 3

            Rounds of hip-hip-hooray (aussie culture), my head was pushed down and thank

            God, the choc wasn’t muddy at all and nothing got onto my face. I was so glad,

            but suddenly, a hand full of choc cake landed on my face, the next thing I knew

            was my face was covered with chocolate, even in my ears. EEWWW Min Hau

            Tan!!!! He ran to my toilet. Damn!

Okla

I abit sien wanna finish the whole story. I was very very touched because they turned up eventhough all of them are still having their exams. I wanna thank everyone that came tonight. A big thank you to “ Chyn, Omega, Xue Fang, Wendy, Hubert, August, Min Hau, Sumi, Ralph, Issac, Chong Shen, Ricky, Joo, Collin, Hwa Loong,” for coming tonight.

Now ta-da, unwrapping presents time, the presents my friends got me made me more speechless. I got a puny funky Iriver MP3 from all my friends which I wanted so much I just asked my mom to get one for me from

malaysia

. Arigatou to EVERY everyone who contributed!! I love it. On another special note, I wanna thank my Roomie-Chyn, Omega Leong, and my housemate-Jia Kai for the special presents, a lovely bracelet-like SWATCH watch, a DIVA gold necklace (I Lurrvvvvee it) and a pair of DIVA super funky earrings. I fell in love with my new watch immediately, my first SWATCH. I am not exactly a person who wear watch, in fact I don’t wear watch at all for almost 2 years now. But now I’ll start wearing watch from now on. The watch makes me looks very girly. Thanks Thanks Thanks EVERYBODY~~~

Chyn and Ralph are the appointed chef for my big dinner tomorrow. Roast Lamb. Yum yum. Konon got lobster also. Hhhmmm cant wait for the dinner. DANG I am 20!!!!!!

Love ya peeps!!

         

It’s exactly 10.54 am in the morning. Here I am still on bed, underneath my warm quilt refusing to get up, wash up, get changed and start my day. For the past 2 weeks or so, I found myself being very lethargic, no "umph" to do anything or study for exam, maybe it’s because of this semester. The countlesssss assesstments during the semester have done a good job wearing me out and also because most of my subjects are 50% assignment based and therefore can pass and get H3 easily without putting much effort into studying for finals. That’s why.

Anewayz, before I closed my eyes last night, I made plan for today. The plan is or is supposed to be, wake up at 9am, wash up and get changed and eat breakfast(leftovr from last night), go DIMIA and get my visa label, go state Library to study for an hour or so, and then go lygon street and 2pm to meet a friend to settle something, and then since i am in lygon, might as well order a nice java chip from starbucks and spend 3 hours there to study and catch the city circle tram back home before 6.30pm. Sounds like a good plan huh? But now being 2 hours behind my planned plan, I think I’ll just stay home till 1pm and go DIMIA straight from home. Aikkksss. I lack of self-discipline and determination i know. No drive, no force. I remember a friend told me before, the force that keeps driving him forward in life is his dyed hair. He said the colour that he dyed reminds him of what he has done and thus motivates him. Well I didn’t really get what he means by that but what I really need now is a motivator, a force, a drive to push me. Maybe I need a break. Hope next semester’s workload will not be as crazy as this sem.

O yeah, finally got internet at home after like 6 weeks. ADSL 2+!!! wooohhhhoooooo~~~ the 6 weeks without internet was like living in ancient time. Melia said it was funny, living in first world country without access to internet. yay!! no more rushing to the net cafe near my house, no more going to state lib with my laptop at night, no more fighting over dial-up line, no more begging to use dial-up or make a call!! Now can go online anytime and anywhere at home. yay!

I miss my 1 year old baby cousin, mom told me he can talk heaps of words now. I missed his "kekekeke" laugh, his smiles, those time spent with him on swings. He is a happy and intelligent baby. Wonder how he looks like now. By the time I go back end of this year he will be almost 2 years old d. How time flies, again~

ok guess I better get my butt outta my bed if not, not only the first part of the plan is ruined, the plan for whole day will be ruined as well. Good day peeps!!!

P/S : Good luck to my darlings for the coming exams. Wish me luck too kays. let’s get through it together!! Jia you babes!!!!!!!!!!!

Alrighty. time to blog again after god-knows-how-long. Second year first semester in melbourne uni. what can i say? this semester is super-duber CRAZIIIIIEEEEEEE~ The siao workload has already worn me out even there is still one month to the finals. 3 team assignments, countless individual assignments (every week got 1 or 2 due), 3 Mid semester test (each comprises 20% of the total assessment), and not to mention few presentations in tute. ArggHHHHhhhHHh~ think it’s still not enough for me, family problems and some other problems which seem to be petty but I couldn’t help but to be bothered by them. Finals coming and I am now way behind my business finance because i paid too much attention to the 2 other management subs I am doing. One 5 % assignment due next monday and haven’t even started. going to start doing it after this. yeah i will….

I understand that everyone has mood swings. I do have it all the time, but I know that other people do not deserve to be affected if not victimized by my own moodiness, that’s why if it’s not necessary I will hide it to myself. However, I am taken for granted and somebody thought that his or her mood swings are of such big deal and everyone around him or her should get the signal and shoo away. Sometimes it’s because of his or her moodiness, my own mood was affected and he or she will come to me and say I am very moody sometimes as well. Therefore, I choose to run away. X always wears a happy face when he or she is outside with friends but once home, face is totally changed to th black and tired one and expected everyone to know that he or she is tired and therefore should be more forgiving. I don’t like being taken granted for. seriously hate the feelings.

My grandma is in critical situation now, might leave us anytime. My dad was dead worried for her and at the same time has to pay attention to his business. Mom was very busy at her work, had to help my dad out sometimes, was worried about me from time to time ( no matter how many time I assure her that I am safe and healthy here in melbie).

On another note, I was happy yesterday after a long long month of mid sems and assignment. I got my OB team assignment back yesterday, the mark we got was much much better than what I expected due to some issues with my other team mates. My team consists of 2 aussie ang mohs, 1 malaysian (me) and 1 china guy. I think I work pretty well with the 2 ang mohs and the china guy is the problematic one. He claimed that he just came to melbourne uni after his first year in china and therefore wasn’t used to the way we work here. Obviously he knows nothing about plaigirism and referencing. The draft he submitted to us not only was way after our agreed due date, but also was copied words to words from our text and case study.The other ang moh guy got so pissed off and asked him why is this happening and explained to him that if we were to submit the work he did, for sure we would get a big F for our assignment because it was plaigirism. and then he went like " Ohh I thought we are supposed to refer to theory in text and answer quest based on it" Then we decided to not depend on him anymore and started to do his part of the assignment all over again one day before it was due. the ang moh was very angry because he had to work extra 12 hours on this because of the china guy’s incompetencies and suggested that we should talk to our tutor and see if we could exclude him from our team. I said we should give him a chance as it wuld be difficult for him to adapt to the way we do assignment here straightaway after one month he arrived at melbourne so alright we decided to give him another chance. everyone in our team will take turn to complete the weekly assignment for tute and it was his turn to complete last week and I changed my mind about giving him another chance completely when I read his work that he sent around to us before submission. It was a total crap, obviously he made no blardy effort or whatsoever to read the text and lecture notes at all before he attempted the questions. comon where got uni student in any camous answer a question in 2 sentence???!!!! that wasn’t even PMR standard. Not only that he answered 3 questions in less than half a page long, he wasn’t answering the questions at all!!!! I was damn pissed as he sent his work at like 12-ish midnight and it was supposed to be handed in the next mornning so I panicked, and called him to change the whole thing and told him exactly what he need to put down as answer for the questions. He said Yes Yes, I understand over the phone but right after 5 mins we hung up, he smsed me and said " I am still confusing (dun mind the bad grammar) about the questions, i thought we only need to answer the questions based on the case study" This pissed me lagi more and said I would take over from there and he NEED NOT to worry bout it. and cos of that I stayed up till 4 am to finish his work and submitted it in our 9am tute next day. Memang I tak boleh tahan d and talked to our tutor after talking to both my other team mates and the tutor called all of us to a serious meeting after class to discuss bout our issue. Obviously he is breaching the team contract that we signed at the beginning of team formation and in the contract we clearly state that we reserve the right to bring any issue to our tutor or even exclude anyone who is not abiding to the terms from the team. Moreover this sub was 50% assignment based and we wouldnt wanna let him free-ride on us and get the mark eventhough he put in NO input at all. In the meeting when the tutor asked him why is this happening, he gave lame excuses like his laptop was stolen, he has no text book etc… then we were like "duh there are comp labs everywhere in the uni and state lib, and right u dun have a text book but I believe u DO have your lecture notes with ya and I am sure u do ATTEND the lectures right." He said nothing after that. we so wanted to kick him ut but our tutor said we shouldn;t do that and that we must try to bring his ability up to our standard. WTH!!!??? Not fair Not fair. HOWEVER, after a long story, we still got a pretty good mark and that made my day!!!

Another thing that made my day, I was elected as the incoming Treasurer of MUOSS uncontested. Wahahahaha I was the only nominee for the position (actually there was only one nominee for each of the Exco positions). And yeah, I won the position without having to worry about policy speech and campaigning.

Okla…thats all for now la, to all my dah-lings back home. Miss you all as always. sorry I couldn;t be there for all of your birthdays and am glad that u all had such a fabulous time bcak home!!! I missshhh home and you guys`~! Couldn’t wait for winter break to come~ lalalala

Love ya all peeps~!

BLARDY DAMMMMNNNN the hell of her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Who do you blardy think you are? huh!!!!!!!!!!

You don’t even deserve my breath!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To hell with that blardy awful attitude of YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARRGgGGGGHhHHHHHH…….

Fuh, sincerely I wanna wish you ALL THE BEST in your future. The attitude of yours will not take you far in life. And yeah congratulations to you, you are by far the very first human being that really disgusted me. I have never, in my entire life, disliked someone so much until I met you. Thanks for being the first and hopefully the last.

It’s saturday again. The last day of the fourth week of my second semester in Uni. So far my day has been lovely, woke up rather late, tossed around in bed while waiting for my roomate to finish her shower, had a rather filling brunch with her and then came to MUOSS lounge to do some studying while my roomate is busy decorating the notice board. So why am I here blogging? Got tired of studying after finished reading all the lecture notes for the past 3 weeks, so decided to browse through friendster for friends’ updates. Read Chenn Chenn’s blogs and realised that I have completely lost track of what has been happening in her life. Sorry darl, I didn’t know you have gone through so many moments of misery, undecisive time and tears and sorry I didn’t make the effort to get to know more. I am sorry babe! Feeling pretty lousy of myself now. I’ll make it up to you I promise, and sorry I didnt get to reply your msg on msn everytime you sent me msg, I was always not around and when I was finally around to see the message u sent me, you were already offline. Sorry sorry sorry, I’ll be around more I promise and do pester the Streamyx ppl more so they will come install the damn modem quicker! I still can’t believe your area can receive the signals while my area can’t! Keep calling them everyday if not they will take forever to come one! lol.

Phewww~~ I’m feeling so much lighter now after talking and seeing two of my favourite babes. Thanks babes for listenning to me and cheering me up with your spastic expressions..haha! You made my day today and tomorow as well…thanks alot! Anyway, Melia, be extra alert n careful while driving in a jam without me being next to u to exchange seat with u yah..tap on the brake ealier, dun emergency brake so often kays? Bear/elephant/kucing Kenny, anyway what’s the name of the weird-looking creature you invented?lol, drive carefully yah..dun la always bang here and there…lol…I sound like an aunty…hehe.

This week is already the fourth week of the second semester and I am still slacking like nobody’s business. How how? I need some motivation to get my engine started. It got rusty and unstartable over the winter break. Too many things happened at the same time. So many that they got out of my hand and I can’t focus. Stresss…but dang I’m still slacking eventhough the stress is driving me up the wall already…focus Lim Sing Yieng!!!

Oyea, the highlight of my life this week…nude guys running around in my accounting lecture yesterday and I got first class view from the place I was sitting in the lec…hahaha kinda like an eye-openner, new experience which had spiced up my this week abit…hahaha…

I realised I’ve never walked so much in my life before I came to Melbourne. For the past few days, I had walked alot, from my place to the city, around the city and from the city back to my house. One whole day of walking eventhough there were trams everywhere I went. What I want to point out here is that walking is really good at helping me to clear my mind. Strolling aimlessly around the peaceful parks in the cold weather of winter, sitting down on the grass by the Yarra river and staring at the flowing water for an hour or so, or just walking slowly amidst throngs of people of different skin colour along the major streets in the city and stopping by once in a while to look at the loveliness of the structure of buildings and weird-looking statues around me. Life here is so slow, relaxing, calm and peaceful, I like it here.

Lately, my life has been rather happening, lotsa gatherings with new and old gangs of friends, second semester of my first year in Melbourne Uni started, birthday parties every week. On top of everything, there are also moments of confusion, awkwardness and uncomfort between me and people around me. Things are getting pretty out of my control and I can’t read my own mind and other’s minds anymore. Oh gosh, hate being so grown-up and still not able to handle my own feelings and emotions. I really think I need someone to slap me hard and tell straight on my face what I really want deep down and do things following my heart and not mind. But it’s very selfish of me if I do so, I need to consider the feelings of those around me whom I care heaps. Argh damn!

Aneway, I went on a crazy shopping spree and burnt a huge hole on my wallet. Actually it wasn’t as crazy as how it was back in M’sia during Mega Sales. I’ve bought 11 tops, 2 jackets, countless of earrings and I still need heels and a formal skirt or slack for my intro night. I missed hitting MNG, Miss selfridge, Topshop etc with my babes. Thank god there is massive mega sales when I go back this coming december, can wait no more..hehe!

Ok my roomate is now on the way to the airport to board the midnight flight back to M’sia. Seriously absence makes the heart goes fonder, issit something like that? ahahaha now I have started missing her presence in our apartment. The ugliness of human really, we human will realise the importance of something or someone and appreaciate its presence only when the thing or person is outta your life either forever or temporarily.

Sometimes when something or someone who has been in your life for so long that it has actually become a part of your life even without you knowing it yourself, and something occurs which cause the "something" or "someone" to dissappear from your life either temporarily or forever. You will feel like some part of your life eventhough it can be a small part is gone and that your life is incomplete. The same feeling will always come to you regardless of whether the "something" or "someone" has brought good or bad memories to you. Therefore the moral of the story is that don’t get anything or anyone for granted when it’s still around you unless you want to regret afterwards.

This suddenly struck me not because of the absence of my roomate, I never take her for granted and I know she will be coming back after one month eventhough one month is actually pretty long. The same situation applies when the feeling or perception you have towards "something" or "someone" changes all of a sudden when you wake up in a fine morning one day..ahahaha..it’s all in your mind after all, some people said but how true is it? The art of letting go or in another phrase the art of losing is very hard to master.

Exam is finally over and holidays is here! I have got lotsa stuffs to analyse and think about over the one month winter break and yeah I am also going on a trip to somewhere in the middle of aussie, ahaha no idea where but for sure it would be filled with nothing but fuN, fUN, and FUN. It’s the company that matters For all my dah-lins back home, love you all lots as usual. Cheers.

Alrighty, I guess it is time to update my blog =) Have not been bothered to blog for months, it’s not that I am busy with stuffs, it’s just the pure laziness in me. Therefore, I decided to spend one precious hour of my afternoon today and think of what to write. The reason why I haven’t been blogging for ages is not that my life is so not interesting that I have absolutely nothing significant to write about. In fact, there are a lot of things happened around me, especially lately but I just didn’t know how to type it out. I had tried so many times to sit down in front of my laptop thinking hard on what to write, however I would always end up writing nothing and giving up thinking of what to write. Sad huh?

Hey my dear dear friends back home, how are you all loveliest people on earth doing? I guess most of you had already started uni like I had, if not going to start living uni life soon. haha, all the best peeps and I miss you all dearly. I’m missing my babies in kindergarten badly as well, I guess they must be having mid-sem break now and have forgotten about me and the things we did together. I won’t be able to visit them again because I’ll only be going back home in december when the semester ends and most of them are going to Primary 1 next year. Aiks the 8 months I’ve spent with them will forever remain in my memory. Regretted never taking lotsa photos with them before I left Malaysia and not being able to see them grow.

Ok, enough of the past and back to present life. This month is already my fourth month in Melbourne. The winter is finally here and the weather here has started getting really freaking cold, especially in the wee hours of morning and at night. However I find myself able to adapt to the coldness and dryness of the weather here, hahaha proud of myself. So far, I haven’t fallen sick since the day I landed on the land of Melbourne, this proves that I am pretty good at taking care of myself but I won’t say I have gained enough independence yet because there are still a lot of stuffs that I can’t handle properly on my own. I need more time to prove that I am independent enough to take complete care of my life. =)

I’m actually in the middle of exam period and had already completed 3 papers this week. 3 papers down and 1 more to go, freakingly sucky Management which falls on the 14th of June. I am currenlt learning how to love Management in a hard way. Reading the Management text book reminds me so much of studying for Sejarah paper in SPM. Nightmare! But I have no choice but to stop complaining and get things done because I really need to do well in my management paper to compensate the suckiness of my accounting paper. Microecon paper was alright eventhough I had not enough time to finish everything in complete answers and Quantitative Method 1 paper was alright too except for the MCQ part that had killed me. Not to mention bout Accounting paper, now I am having second tough whether should I major in Accounting in my second year. 4 more days for me to stuff as many of the theories as possible into my poor already congested memory.

I’ve met a bunch of lovely friends and have hung out with them a whole lot for the past whole month. Frankly, I have enjoyed their company very much because they made me feel very much at home. I had run for two positions in the Overseas Student body in my uni and was elected for both of the positions after 3 days of not-so-much campaigning. This winter break is gonna be so much fun because I am going to organize the orientation week with the newly elected team. Really looking forward to it.

After joining the committee, going to pub to chill out has become a norm. I don’t really like pubbing alot because there is nothing much that you can do there apart of hanging around with alcohol, talking craps with people and buying each other shots once in a while and the place is blardy smokey. However, on top of what I’ve mentioned just now, shots are quite nice, I kinda like them but I got tipsy straight after 1 or 2 shots plus some beer. My tolerance is kinda low I know, haha. Still, I prefer going to bistro with a bunch of friends after dinner and sipping beer while chatting our nights away. Ok I am feeling a lil homesick now. =(

The past month was filled with emotion, misunderstanding, excessive alcohols that lead to tears and not to mention STRESS to the very max. I have this friend of mine who is going through lotsa crap lately and what makes everything worse is that it happened during exam period. Be strong yah! Everything will be ok in the end, if it’s not ok then it’s not the end yet. =) As for myself, the stress and emotion and homesickness are driving me up the wall, there were so many times that I just felt like crying everything out but I couldn’t as there was no tears at all, not lke last time I can just release everything out by crying. I found it hard to shed a tear eventhough I am all stressed out and tired, maybe it’s the dry weather here that has dried my well of tears up haha. Until last night, tears can finally flow down from my eyes and I felt much much better after that and went to bed to sleep straight after right until 12 pm just now. I want my soft toys on my bed back home which are already contaminated by my tears, saliva and mucuous.

Oh yeah, tomorrow is my burfday/burpday/birdday, my first birthday in Melbourne. my first birthday which I am not going to celebrate with my parents and dear friends back home. Thinking back of all my birthdays spent with my babes put a smile on my face, they never failed to make me extremely happy and feel like I am the most important person on the whole entire world on that day. The most memorable birthday I had was my 18th birthday last year haha because I celebrated with 3 different groups of friends who play different role at different stages of my life, my best friends, college buddies, high school gang and squash team. I’ve got 5 birthday cakes last year which were all home made by my friends. AAaaaWWWwww…touching rite…love them all so so much for willing to make my day special. Can’t wait for tomorrow to come, hahaha I’m turning 19th in just a few more hours, WWhheeeeeeeee….last year of my teenager life, time flies yah? Anyway, going to have a proper dinner with my friends here and yeah I met another friend who has the same birthday as me, hahaha gonna celebrate with her together tomorrow night. Yay!! up until this point, life is beautiful…hahaha it is…muah life!

Ok. That’s all for now. Thanks Wan Feng, one of my bestest friend ever and Keat for wishing me Happy birthday hahaha…u guys made my day!

Love you all peeps! Peace out

Cheers

At exactly 12 am just now, I told my friend that I was going to her house to get something. On my way to her place, I bumped into a bunch of malaysians downstairs with malaysian flags and banners with MALAYSIA BOLEH on it. When they saw me, they started jumping up and down showing me the banners. They were screaming like hell too..ahahahaha secara tidak langsung, i raised my arm and yelled malaysia boleh too, malaysians’ instinct I guess. So apparently they told me they just came back from the commanwealth game and Malaysia badminton team had just defeated the england team and got gold medal. I was overjoyed to hear that eventhough I missed watching the game. they even showed me those autographs from the players and at that moment I really did feel proud of my country and made me realise that I actually miss malaysia.lol